You Deserve

Something clicked this week. The exact moment or scenario eludes me, but when it clicked… GIRL it hasn’t stopped clicking. It’s click-clacking. For the first time, I feel like I actually deserve more. This is a wild feeling.

As women, we can be so hard on ourselves about all the wrong things. Feeling like you’re not doing enough is almost the default. Personally, it’s done more harm than good. Maybe you can relate to the cycle:

1. Feeling Inadequate - You could be doing more, doing it all, doing it harder?! tf

2. Adding Fuel to the Fire - Taking on more tasks, more hours, more intensity.

3. Crashing and Burning Out - It was too much, too soon, and frankly nonsensical.
   

Just to be back to feeling inadequate. It’s exhausting.

There are a few conversations in cars with strangers that come up in my life constantly. I thank God for my time at Enterprise Rent-A-Car (gag). Without these angels that I know were sent to me, it would have been a complete waste of time.

One of the top five was with a professional strategist. He was very well educated and worked in tech. One thing he said will stay with me forever.

“Strategy isn’t doing everything. It’s focusing on one thing and doing it well”

At the time I could not compute. I couldn’t even FATHOM picking one thing. I still find it difficult to embrace the idea due to my stubbornness. I want to do it all. But he was so right.

I never felt deserving of success until I started being consistent. Doing the same thing every week. At the same time with the same purpose. The momentum is everything. You do it cause you have to do it and you don’t care how long it takes and even if it’s always successful. You just do it.

Although my results are pending and it took numerous pivots to align my life to be able to focus on one thing. Something more valuable than the end goal was gained. Self-worth. Real self-worth. For the first time, I looked at my work and knew I deserved it. Whereas you might think of all the ways it could be better or where you went wrong. There was a shift. There’s always tomorrow and the next day and it will continue to get better. It’s not a one-and-done and life would be boring if it was.

This is new and strange territory, but I hope everyone gets this feeling of “enough”.

xx

Yvanna